School’s almost over and I’m not really sure what to write about at the moment. I’m in the state of limbo between overly stressed out and at peace with the fact that in less than 12 hours I’ll probably be getting no more than 3 hours of sleep every night until Thursday. I’m at the point where I almost have nothing to worry about because everything has to get done whether I feel like I’m ready or not.
I feel like I’ve been pretty lucky this semester to have group projects in almost half of my classes that are actually working out really well. Usually I hate group projects, but this semester I feel like those classes are the only ones that I’m not worried about since everything is done already. It’s a nice feeling. But, then again, I have to write a 4500 word essay by Monday night. I’m about 42% done which is isn’t too bad, but it’ll have to be written whether that means I don’t sleep Sunday night so that I have enough time to proofread or not. It’s crunch time and I think I’d rather be sleeping.
It doesn’t help that I haven’t been feeling super well lately either; I just feel exhausted, emotionally drained, and distant. It’s been hard for me to focus (or care a whole lot) about what I should be doing. I know that I need to finish my work and complete my homework, but at this point I feel like I’m just going through the motions. I feel like an exam might be easier to complete just because I could wing it and still do okay. Having to finish and present 4 large projects is harder than it may seem to some people.
I’m really ready for the holidays, but I still haven’t even gone Christmas shopping yet. It’ll be nice to be finally done classes for the semester, but I also think about the coming stress of family and shopping that the holidays bring, not to mention fixing portfolio pieces and updating my website like a real adult should be doing. But I think I need to get some sleep first.